Showing posts with label habit. Show all posts
Showing posts with label habit. Show all posts

Sunday, November 1, 2009

It's November and you know what that means

It is November 1st, 2009, seven days until my 3rd-39th birthday.

As in years past, I use this season to reflect on the previous twelve months and look forward to the next twelve months. I consider my emotional, spiritual, intellectual and physical well-being.
  • Have I progressed or digressed in any of these areas?
  • Have I met last year's short-term goals and made perceptible progress on my long-term goals? Are the long-term goals still applicable/valuable?
  • Have I been a good person this year, helped others, supported my chosen nonprofits, given to my church, etc.?
  • Have I picked up any new habits, if so, are they "good" or "bad?"
  • What are my goals for next year? What are the milestones on the way to the finish line?
  • Are there new things I can learn? What can I learn to do better?
  • Have I spoken life, love, joy and peace this year?
  • Have I been a friend? Have I forgiven those who trespassed against me?
  • Have those in my life brought positivity, energy, laughter, etc.?
  • Have I been the best Shannon I know I can be?
  • Did I give my life 100%?
You get the idea.

At first glance, this 40th year seems to have been pretty good; however, there is always need for reflection and definitely room for improvement: going further, doing better, digging deeper, reaching higher and going above & beyond.

I invite you, my family, friends, tweeps, followers, connections, readers, fans and haters ;-) to join me on my journey this month. I'm beginning by being thankful and grateful:

"First and foremost, I'm #thankfulfor my Lord and savior Jesus Christ, who gave his life that I am saved."

Monday, February 16, 2009

Cliffhanger

I'm scared. I'm falling into an old habit.

I don't want to and when I try to not to, all I can think about is doing it again.

I am better than this. I am more disciplined than this. I am in control of my life.

How did it even get to this point?
How did I let it get this far?
Am I that frickin' desperate?

Good news: I haven't completely gone over the cliff.
Bad news: I'm definitely driving full speed ahead towards edge.
Worse news: I don't care if I go over; I want what I want.
Worst news: I going over the cliff with my eyes wide open and I'm dragging at least two other folks with me.

I am such a pathetic loser, and don't try to tell me I'm not. Don't try to make me feel better. Don't try to rationalize what I'm doing. Just let me be in my misery and leave me ALONE!

Thelma!
Louise!
I'm on my way...save me spot over the cliff.